Secretly,
I cry deep down inside,
wanting all the emotional things,
I don't even know I have.
Secretly, wanting the things
I don't know how to have.
How do I feel,
what do i feel, when will
I know I feel.
Empty,
Unknowing,
and unwilling.
Leave me to my own...
Leave me to suffer in my silence.
Smiling without showing my teeth.
Smiles empty of feeling....
I just want to wonder,
through the forest of my mind.
Green and lush.
No people to talk to ,
just the animals.
Don't help me
I have not asked for help...
Let me drown,
sinking in the mire of what was my life.
I am not cutting,
I am not bleeding,
so you don't know how much it hurts.
Secretly,
I pretend to be O.K.
Secretly,
its not a secret until you tell someone.
If you have no friends.
Who is there to tell.
Perception
© 2011 Stefanie Stevens
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