I can't live like this

I can't live a lie,
preying on the weakest of the weakest.
Angry with my fist balled up,
I want what I can't have.
I will never, have it, because
because of me.

I can't live this lie
the pain, I am empty,
and alone. A mason jar with no top.

I can only be your friend.
Never will i be able to reach out and touch you.
You are not allowed to touch me.
I am not what you think I am.
A Wo/MAN in clothing refelctive of gender.
Don't consider me as I am not worthy of you,
or us, or me or they or them.

I can't live like this,
alone on the mountain,
thick lush forest,
dense, knowbody can find me.
Perpetural victom of circumstance.
Break my bones,
bruse my face,
injury to all that meet me.

I can't live like this,
something has to give,
I will either give into, and let go of,
or just lay down and die.

What do I have to offer?
I can't put to words, but I can
paint you the picture.

Remember me when
dawn has erased away her beauty,
and the sun caresses the dew.
Remember me as a shadow, of
ultimate beauty and grandor, as I
am no man's jewl, I am only their curse.
Never to be cherished,
used and tossed into the ocean of
discontent. Stand proud when
you say you have conqured, you have been there.
At what expense.

Do you feel the emptyness...
regret, as your words have taken a lfe,
a soul.
You are free, and I
Can't live like this.