The apology

Abscense of mind
missing that piece that connects me
to the space I am supposed to be grounded to,
Nobody noticed
I went missing,
been gone a long time.
Doing the same things
expecting different outcome.
Insanity,
so they say.
There are pills for that.
I am not on them.
Does that make me insane.

Since I gave you away,
I don't sleep anymore.
I don't eat anymore.
The physical injuries have,
all healed.
The emotional damage, 
has arrived.

Anger,
Frustration,
this is not what I wanted.
I also did not want
bruses that go from blue,black
to faded yellow.
I held you to my promise.
You belonged to me.
Physical injury is cannot be part of that
promise.

I made so many mistakes,
I hope one day
you will forgive me.
I apologize.