Only for the moment

I grapple with my thoughts,
but only for " a moment".
engulfed with you, tossing and turning.
My thoughts,
your sweet smell and taste remain on me.
I want to hold you and make it better.
I want to love you with no restrictions,
expectations, or ideas of who I want you to be
in relation to me.
Your heavy breathing,
yes, snoring, you said to nudge you.
I would rather enjoy your presense.
Loving you just the way you are.
I know "this" , is only for the moment.
As your spirit is restless,
and there is so much more for you.
Where ever that place may be.
Its not that I am not good enough.
Its that you don't know enough,
not yet,
not until the big lady is singing.
She might even have to dance.
You just are not ready for enough.
I run,
you run,
both going....
different directions.
never to each other.
How I would love to love you
in the same place at the same time.
I miss our long talks,
supple kissable lips,
warm and longing.
I miss you,
grief before the end.
I know "this" is only for the moment
but damn let me enjoy "it"
Only for the moment.
© 2011 Stefanie Stevens